Hi! My name is Caesha. I am a part-time Blogger. A college student, a strawberry&gummy lover. Singer&dancer in my world. I can play some instruments too! Frustrated song writer :) I lover reading. And I Follow my Savior, Jesus Christ! Feel blessed in my Testimonies and I hope that I'll inspire you with my Love stories !




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Today I had a Conversation with my classmates in school. They asked me to open the Facebook Walls of my High school classmates whom are Beautiful. Then they suddenly told me, ”is this your Friends? Why are they beautiful Unlike you? How come your level became their friends?”
Though its a Joke, That thought made me think about something.
Yes, my Friends are indeed BEAUTIFUL. Some are already Models now. And I am very very much Proud of them.
But It never occurred to me, that Beauty would be the Foundation and Basis of Friendship. Cause for me its not and it will never be. Whatever, race, class, physical appearance you might have, as Long as I told you that You’re my Friend and you considered me yours too, then we will be.

Whats Wrong with the World now?
Friendship seems to be a Business and a state of being Famous now. -_-
Open Your eyes People!


-TEAM ROCKET<3

Today I had a Conversation with my classmates in school. They asked me to open the Facebook Walls of my High school classmates whom are Beautiful. Then they suddenly told me, ”is this your Friends? Why are they beautiful Unlike you? How come your level became their friends?”

Though its a Joke, That thought made me think about something.

Yes, my Friends are indeed BEAUTIFUL. Some are already Models now. And I am very very much Proud of them.

But It never occurred to me, that Beauty would be the Foundation and Basis of Friendship. Cause for me its not and it will never be. Whatever, race, class, physical appearance you might have, as Long as I told you that You’re my Friend and you considered me yours too, then we will be.

Whats Wrong with the World now?

Friendship seems to be a Business and a state of being Famous now. -_-

Open Your eyes People!

-TEAM ROCKET<3




YEA.

YEA.

(via ispeakquotes)




HAHAHAHAA!

HAHAHAHAA!

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“I tried everything to Unlove you, but eventually I FAILED. 3”

Hope you knew.




TODAY IS THE DAY OF MOVING ON WITH HIM :)

Learn to Let go and you will Learn &lt;3

TODAY IS THE DAY OF MOVING ON WITH HIM :)

Learn to Let go and you will Learn <3




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Words can’t express how I Miss You.




Last day of September 2013 <3

 Isang bagay na nakapagpakaiba ng araw ko ay ang mga salitang ito:

"Sorry, kung kanina di ako nakatakbo."

    I know, sa mga salitang yan madami kayong maiisip na meaning. Maaaring may fun run at hindi sya nakasama. Maaaring may naghahabulan at hindi sya nakaabot. Maaaring may naghihintay sakanya pero parang nagpapagal pa syang lumakad. Madaming maaaring sitwasyon. Pero, una sa lahat, Sino ba ang nagsabi sa akin nyan?

Sya. Ang Best friend ko. Kapatid ko sa Pananampalataya. Kuya ko. Partner ko. Ang Nobyo ko. 

    Sinabi nya yan sakin dahil alam nya ang kahalagahan ng PAGTAKBO. Lalo na sa magkarelasyon. Lalo na sa oras na pangangailangan. Di nyo gets? Kami lang nakakaintindi nun! Hihihi :> 




One thing I lack of is CONFIDENCE.




 I didn&#8217;t expect that after all these years , I am going to Feel More In Love with/to this Person. Especially when I saw him sincerely close his eyes while singing Praises and unashamedly Lift his hands to the Lord. Another, I am so bless and proud when I saw how he uses his talents for God&#8217;s Glory. And one more thing, I am so Blessed that God lend me a person like this. He is not mine , and I am not his, God owns us. Thankyouuuu Lord for this Life with him. &lt;3 





Mas gusto kong sabihin to ng Tagalog eh&#160;:
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA! :)



One of the sweetest thing a guy could say to his girl is:
I love you. But I love my God Most.
-Thank God to hear these things from you. &lt;3

 I didn’t expect that after all these years , I am going to Feel More In Love with/to this Person. Especially when I saw him sincerely close his eyes while singing Praises and unashamedly Lift his hands to the Lord. Another, I am so bless and proud when I saw how he uses his talents for God’s Glory. And one more thing, I am so Blessed that God lend me a person like this. He is not mine , and I am not his, God owns us. Thankyouuuu Lord for this Life with him. <3 

Mas gusto kong sabihin to ng Tagalog eh :

MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA! :)

One of the sweetest thing a guy could say to his girl is:

I love you. But I love my God Most.

-Thank God to hear these things from you. <3




Natatakot Mag-ILOVE YOU?

           Ganito pala ang feeling ng natatakot magmahal. Natatakot magrespond sa salitang I Love You. Grabe , mahirap pala. Lalo na kung halos nasanay kang anjan sya. 

           Mahal ko sya. Mahal na mahal nga eh. Bukod sa mga Post ko para sa Panginoon at mga testimony, Isa sya sa laman ng Tumblr ko. Kasi isa sya sa Blessing ng Panginoon sa akin. Siya ung laman ng una at hinihiling kong huling Love story. Siya lang naman ung naiisip kong papakasalan ko pagdating ng panahon. Siya lang naman ung nakikita kong kasama ko sa pagpupuri namin sa Panginoon. Siya lang naman ung lalaking laman ng pangarap kong asawa. Siya kasi ang Una , yung best friend, Kapatid ko. Siya kasi ung Mahal ko. Sya ung binbigay ni Lord nung mga panahong humiling ako Sakanya ng taong mamahalin. 

       Pero may aaminin ako. Nung humiling ako kay Lord, at tinugon Nya, nagalala ako na baka , mali to. Baka di kami magtagal. Baka kumplikado. Kaya humiling ulit ako kay Lord na “2 years in relationship contract.” Kahit 2 years lang sabi ko. At eto, magtotwo years na nga kami. At pawang natutupad ung “Kahit 2 years lang” na kahilingan ko. Nawawala na nga kami sa isa’t isa. Nalulungkot ako, personally kasi parang anjan, pero wala. Nagkanya-kanya ba? May oras naman kami sa isa’t-isa. May bonding naman. Okay naman lahat eh. Wala namang 3rd party. In fact faithful at loyal kami sa isa’t-isa. Pero, there’s something difficult to handle deep inside. May mali, na hindi namin mawari. I guess, pagnagaaway kami un un! Nagkakabati kasi, ng hindi malinaw kung ayos na ba ung problema. Kaya ang tendency same reason ang pinagaawayan kasi hindi naaayos. 

          Hanggang sa deep inside, bumigat sakin lalo. Hanggang sa napuno ng napuno ako ng kabigatan. At hindi ko na alam ang sasabihin kapag nagsbe sya ng i love you sa akin. Kasi di na ko makapaniwala. Mahal nya ko, pero nasasaktan nya ko. Mahal nya ko pero papaiyakin nya ko. Mahal nya ko pero iiwan nya ko sa  isang sulok. Mahal nya ko pero di nya naman pinaparamdam. Di na nya napaparamdam. At di ko na maramdaman. Kaya di ko din alam kung paano ipaparamdam sakanya na Mahal ko pa di  sya. 

Mahal ko padin sya, kahit ang sakit na </3



“Masklap tumira sa isang tahanan, na araw-araw ipaparamdam sayo na Hindi ka Welcome; ng sarili mong Pamilya.”




Everything is out of my Control. But I believe that God is in control :)

        Haaaay. Simple lang naman problema ko ngayon eh. About my family. Most of the changed. But not for good & not for God. Alam nyo ba ung feeling na ginagawa mo ung lahat para magpa-good shot not because you need something but because you just want to. Gusto mo lang, mahalin sila. alagan sila. Gusto mo lang makita ung mga smiles nila na di kelangan pilitin. Gusto mo lang, makita ung view ng isang masaya at nagkakasundong pamilya. Tulad ng gusto ko. Gusto ko lang mangyare to. Pero, unfortunately, the won’t let me. Ayaw nilang tumanggap ng tulong, with a bonus feedback na baka daw isumbat ko pa. They are my family, they should know that I’m not that kind of a person. Pero I guess they judge me first before they know me. Alam ni Lord kung ano ung mga willingness na ginagawa ko for them. And all I need is a these two words. “I’m sorry,” & “Thank you.” Pero kahit isang percent ng appreciation , waley. In fact, in return I get some disrespect from them. Kahit mas bata ako in order for me to respet them, I need to see how they respect me, di ba? Lahat naman dapat ganun eh. But apparently, what I get in return ay walang respetong attitude. Pagduro sakin, pagpapahiya, pagtataboy, paghuhusga,evrything that doesn’t make a person feel even a liitle bit of goodness for herself/himself. 

             Actually, I’m about to breakdown. Suko na ko. Nakakasawa palang magmahal. But God remind me na, Kelan man di Siya napagod Magmahal.Ako pa kaya? And I also realize na hindi naman ung pagmamahal ung nakakapagod eh. Kundi ung Masaktan. How God is so Gracious. Napakabuting Diyos. Hindi ko maisip kung paano Nya nagagwang magmahal ng sobra inspite&despite ng mga taong katulad ko na halos tumalikod na sakanya :) Thankyouuu Lord for youe Love <3 I praise you God. :>




-____- Emotionless .

May nakakaalam ba ng nararamdaman ko today?

Oh yes naman syempre! Si Lord ^_^ Si Lord lang naman talaga nakakaalam ng thoughts ko eh. Siya lang nakakaalam ng tunay na nasa heart ko :| 

Haaaay, bakit ba ang Emo ko ngayon?? 

      Well, kaninang umaga, ang ganda ng pambungad ko. Nakatakip ako ng unan, nakapikit pero gising diwa ko noh. Malinaw pa sa malinaw ung narinig ko. And that changes my mood for this whole day. Sabihan ka ba naman ng lola mo na “Pakainin nyo muna ng almusal yang kapatid nyo, alam mo namang si caesha pabaya ni hindi maasikaso yang bunso niyo.”

(Well, hindi yan ung exact na sinabi but the thought same goes here.) 

      So, pabaya pala ako? Sino ba ung naghuhugas ng pwet ng baby namin kapag may popo siya? Kung hindi si ate, ako diba? Sino ba ung nag-alaga jan kapag wala sila? Kung di si ate, ako di ba? Sino bang laging kasama nyang batang yan? Dahil wala si mama, kung di si ate , ako di ba? Pero, dahil nga may ATE ako, hindi nila nakikita ung efforts ko. Sakit lang kase. Parang ginagawa mo na lahat, pero sila ni sulyapan ung ginagawa mo di nila magawa. Kaasar!!! :( Hindi ako nagagalit, hindi rin sa nababadtrip. Pero, yun nga ang problema ko eh? Dapat nagagalit ako, pero ayaw ng puso kong magalit sakanila. Mas nararamadaman ko yung Sakit kesa galit. Sabay ung devotion ko pa eh about sa two main command ni God and that is “Love the Lord your God & and Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” Kaya, siguro ako hindi magalit galit sakanila kasi, pinapaalalahanan ako ni Lord. Pero, nalulungkot ako. Buong maghapon hindi ko magawang tumawa ng totoo. Di rin naman ako makapag-frown. More on emotionless face. 

       Ang babaw ko noh? Parang yun lang yung sinabi, ikalulungkot ko na agad? :| Kasi, ang dami dami kong sinakripisyo at sinasakripisyo para sa pamilya ko, pero ni hindi man lang nila maappreciate. Yung sarili kong desires, ung boyfriend ko, ung mga kaibigan, even si Lord minsan naiiwan ko para sakanila, then *poof! “Ang Pabaya mong Kapatid..”

Pero, medyo gumaan ung loob ko nung nabasa ko din sa facebook ko ung “Daily God message you ” na apps. The message is “You are a gardener of your soul, Plant your own garden and decorate your soul, instead of expecting other to leave you wilted flower.” Ang galing talaga ni Lord! Tama siya, I should trust Him alone and I should be my own encourager. Dapat di ako madown at dapat di ako magexpect ng kapalit mula sa iba. Dapat di ako mag-expect ng love in return. For loving is my voluntary action. :) 

Haaay, Thankyouuu Lord! talagang di Mo ko iniiwan <3 

 ^_^





I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13, NKJV.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13, NKJV.

(Source: spiritualinspiration, via weliveforjesus)




     I usually think that I am Simple&amp;Different. Whenever someone stares at me, I feel different but whenever they Look at me I feel Simple. Sometimes I see their eyes judging me from head to toe but Can&#8217;t nearly read their minds. Purpose? I know why I lived. I know why God created me. And I know God gave me an extraordinary purpose in this world we are all living in. But I do not know yet my certain purpose. Maybe because of I feel different and have this thinking that I can&#8217;t mingle well with everybody. Or maybe because I feel so Simple, that I am helpless that I won&#8217;t able to go through with everyone. But, God gives me this extreme excitement each and every time or everyday I know He is using me for His works. And because of that, I don&#8217;t care if people underestimate me, cause My God is a Just God. If God is Able then in Jesus Name, &#8220;I am able.&#8221; And I knew my purpose, and that is to Worship God in each and everything we do. Give back all the Glory to the Most High. And He&#8217;ll be responsible for those who persecutes us. I hope my story inspires you. Find yourself and do it on purpose. 

#OwnEdits. #My-God-is-Able &lt;3

     I usually think that I am Simple&Different. Whenever someone stares at me, I feel different but whenever they Look at me I feel Simple. Sometimes I see their eyes judging me from head to toe but Can’t nearly read their minds. Purpose? I know why I lived. I know why God created me. And I know God gave me an extraordinary purpose in this world we are all living in. But I do not know yet my certain purpose. Maybe because of I feel different and have this thinking that I can’t mingle well with everybody. Or maybe because I feel so Simple, that I am helpless that I won’t able to go through with everyone. But, God gives me this extreme excitement each and every time or everyday I know He is using me for His works. And because of that, I don’t care if people underestimate me, cause My God is a Just God. If God is Able then in Jesus Name, “I am able.” And I knew my purpose, and that is to Worship God in each and everything we do. Give back all the Glory to the Most High. And He’ll be responsible for those who persecutes us. I hope my story inspires you. Find yourself and do it on purpose. 

#OwnEdits. #My-God-is-Able <3